Friday, July 17, 2009

Homesick


Do you have a place that makes you feel free? Where you just "fit"?.
I know that might seem hokey....."wherever you are, there you are"...and all that. But... for real people, am I the only one?! Does anyone just have someplace where their heart and soul just soars? Some would say you can find contentment anywhere...it's not in the place, but in yourself. hmmm.............?

My earliest memories are from a time that I lived in Montana. I spent time in between in Nebraska, some vacations that were pure thrill in Florida and a few summers in Virginia. That time in Virginia... I just remember as being hot. There was also some time in North Carolina and Florida. I don't consider Montana home, but when I moved to Colorado when I was 21, something about Durango told me I was home. Maybe it was the similarities in weather, sky, arid climate.....all I know was THAT was it. That was the place I most felt at home. That time in my life was so cathartic. (Maybe that time in everyone's life is cathartic?) I don't know, all I know is that was a great growing time for me...a time of independence, a time of spiritual growth, a time of finding great love.....

So, here I am, back in the South. Where it is.....hot. (although, I must say, we have had some unseasonably dry, and cool days:) But, I digress...again.

Durango was bliss. We often refer to it as Never Neverland...where you just don't really have to "grow-up". Alas, the time came where the "real world" came calling and we moved. Got "real" jobs, got married, bought a house, a car, had a baby.....etc., etc....

Moving back east was another cathartic moment in my life. I learned some hard lessons, grew up some MORE, found more love (little a.) and here I am....feeling homesick. Homesick for a place where I feel free. Where I breath cool, crisp air. Where I see the bluest of blue skies. Longing for WIDE OPEN spaces. Where I see beauty that speaks to me at every turn.

Have you seen it too?

Home is not where you live but where they understand you. -Christian Morgenstern

I long, as every human being, to be at home wherever I find myself. -Maya Angelou


2 comments:

  1. I did not see this until just now, wow. Perhaps we were missing the same thing?! Now that I live here, again (let's face it, traveling 75% of the time does not allow you to live anywhere, really), I was inspired to go hiking this weekend. You and Josh were mentioned often on our hike, as I thought back to our days in Durango when we were 21...

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  2. Come back where the nights are cool and the mornings awaken you with the embrace of perfect smelling summer dreams and adventures...it misses you. Me too.

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